today was very bad day coz i missed an opportunity...

this is somthing related with my weakness i want to share this in front of  my two very special frends who notice this fact i really mean it n thanks to them, today my collage organize a mock test related with some activity like group discussion ,apptitude and personal interview and my tpo sir srtictlly ordered that every student reach at 9:50am, my first mistake is that i reach the collage at 9:51am so tpo sir not allow late cumers to enter in assembly hall than i go to the canteen for a lil'bit time n when i came back i saw there are nobody outside the hall all students entered in the hall so i was little bit afraid n i run to the hall my frend neeraj is also with me when i go there i see that late cumers are standing in fornt of  tpo sir n i think tpo sir insulted them so i use to back foot my self n i should prefer to go back to home this is my second mistake this time my mind had very bad feeling, i feel like dumb n i have inner feeling that this is wrong thing in the sense of  loosing an opportunity for proving myself ,when i came back to home these thing makes me vary disappointed  be'coz  hasitation takes place when i speak in english, i was very afraid at that tym when i saw there are many students who stand on the front of the tpo sir n they were getting insulted by tpo sir, but i thought if i enter myself in hall this fear will absolutlly remove from my mind n definatelly i'l do something which can helps me to make perfect ,really shame on me i missed an opportunity ,i dont have any group discussion session till today so hasitation takes place in my mind n can't be able to say anything comfortabily   so all i want a lil'bit help from my colleague  to remove my stage fear n hasitation n lil'bit coopration from my tpo sir n faculty members so that i can change myself ......thank u